
Insightful...perhaps.
Frustrated and Tired
Sugarcult - She's The BladeSo, I haven't written for a few days - been pretty fucked off lately so I haven't felt like writing. I still don't seem to be getting anymore than 4 or 5 hours sleep a night - which sucks oh so completely...So aside from the usual frustrations
that's annoying me too. And To continue the moans, which lack of sleep probably hasn't helped....
I MISS THEM.
I think generally I can be at peace with these feelings - its pretty normal to miss people you've lost - but not getting enough sleep is making me a little more emotional and on edge. Packing some of my things earlier I picked up the photo (me as a baby) my parents gave me for my 18th - I forgot the note they'd written on the back. And seeing "With Love from Mum and Dad on your 18th Birthday" kinda brought tears to my eyes, seems weird to think back - on my 18th Birthday I would never have thought for a moment it would be the last Birthday I'd spend with my Dad. And It fucking hurts. And It fucking hurts that I can't speak to Ross, when I felt shitty he would always tell you how great you were etc. and as much as it didn't put me on a high or anything it made me feel better to know that he cared and to know he thought so much of me. I hope he knew I thought a lot of him too, and I hope my Dad knew that I'll always think the world of him.
Moving house this weekend, and the lovely, yet useless BT called last night to say that the earliest they can connect our phoneline in the new house will be 15th March - so I won't be around for a while, so I apologise for the further neglect my blog will now recieve. But I hope that everyone who reads is peachy and lush. Take care and have fun now.
Much Love.
xXx