I've been so moody over the weekend...and I don't like it, last night I couldn't sleep for hours and it so didn't help the mood - I always think too much I believe...if thats at all possible?  But anyway so I'm lying in bed can't sleep and just thinking about things - and you know, at the end of the day I still really want to start afresh as much as I did before.  You should always make the best of a bad situation so they say...and I think right now the best I can make from my current situation (despite it not being wholly bad) is to realise that I need to move from this place and the people.  Granted I have friends here, but it's getting back into the whole depression type scenario of being discontent with life...and I don't want to get back into that, and I won't.  What I need now is to do a minor disappearing act and go away for a few days.

I do that, just go away for a weekend and I feel better for it, it's not running away from problems - by in large, I don't really have any, it just clears my head.  And with this in mind, I'm really looking forward to going to stay with Cez at the end of Feb - it'll be good, change of scenery and faces as well as a chance to see a good friend. 

I'm trying to do a nice drawing for Ceri to decorate her lovely room door, but I can't find my Inks so I'm not impressed, I've probably packed them away thinking I won't need them and typical, now I do.  Oh well   I'll just use my trusty black biro. 

Got work later - not having much success finding another evening job.  I've just got my CRB forms back so thats good - I can start work experiance now, something to keep from boredom anyway and I think it'll be good.  Kids can be kinda refreshing I think - seeing their carefree fun and their vivid imaginations that make even a cardboard box fun (lets face it most of us spent a moment of our childhood playing in a card box right? ).  And I sound really old looking back and thinking like that, but I guess I'm a young adult now at 19 - so I now have those responsibilties and understanding that come with age - something you don't have as a child I don't think, well not in the way adults do?  I wouldn't change my childhood though, sometimes I wish I just didn't have to grow up - things would be so much easier...but wheres the fun in easy, its not meant to be easy is it!  I guess thats why I'm so childish somedays, but hey I'm not that old anyway.  I should still be out having a reasonable amount of fun - which I shall do indeed.  But yeah work experiance should be good - because I'll get to be like a child with responsibilty...kinda...

Well anyway since I missed breakfast (as usual), which doesn't impress my Mum, whom always say 'breakfast is the most important meal of the day' ,bless her heart; I'm not gonna get lunch. 

Much Love, Hugs and Kisses.

And here's a little something Ceri created for me - aww, ain't it nice!

And what started it all off?  This piece of randomness I created for her!  Have a good one mate.